Carter.

The ferris wheel was once filled with tons of riders. People waiting in line for the ferris wheel. Now, no one goes on the ferris wheel. The roller coaster, it has piercing screams and now there are lines of people on the roller coaster. They left the ferris wheel for something better. I'm like the ferris wheel. Carter is the person. I'm making wishes on stars. If I could just reach my hand out to him, hug him, remember the memories we used to have. Reminising. I'd give everything I have even just for a second. And as we go by, better things will pop up in our lives. Including new people popping up in the ferris wheel's life. But, still, the ferris wheel won't forget memories with the old people that once rode on the ferris wheel. Oh my, the things I would for just a second to go back to the past, its a dream now. Oh the amazing memories I had with the people who once rode the ferris wheel. I'd never forget.

My point. You say we are friends, but, we are more unfimiliar with eachother than strangers .I stand on the road of memories. Going into the pain of my left chest. I have not yet loved you enough , && now you want me to let go, I follow fates arrow, sadly falling into the next persons arms, who understands in times garden that you havent left my heart yet? :/ I go continue my life, but, all everyone around me can see is a fake calmness. I said I love you too freely, so freely, I said it like I didn't mean it. But honestly, I like you. I've never felt any sadness like this before.. . Because you always to me were like a shining star in my heart. A living dream. Because of you I kept believing in tomorrow. How can I let go of all of our memories? I remember we watched the Hangover together, I remember having Fridays as our movie nights, I remember I called you Jassers, you called me Danners, I always told you the great news that happened to me first before I told anybody else. I kept dreaming and now youre waking me up. If youre not here, who else will I love? Like a shining star you always made my wishes come true, you always made me happy. You're not here. I don't have any hope anymore. You always made me the happiest person alive. I can't really find the words to describe what I'm going through. Everyday the smallest things remind me of you and I start to cry again. I keep pretending I don't care because I don't want to seem like some desperate creepy annoying obsessive freak. But, inside I'm really hurt. To be honest. I try to play it off as a joke, but i become sad right after joking about the whole thing. I don't know if youve noticed, but I've changed ever since I met you, who has changed me? I know what you're thinking. A question without an answer. But you undid that. You've changed me. You've brought scripts from other people and yourself, and youve made them into me more. I never used "XD" or did I really say "hahahaha" and I'm not saying lol as much as I used to. And I love it. You make me happy where ever I go, I think of you and I smile. It's a silent type of love, I never really mention anything, because it's just plain weird and awkward if i do right? haha, well I really do. You make me feel amazing. When I talk to you, it doesn't feel like I have to be someone else, or be scared with every word I say to just make sure I don't say anything bad. But, with you I can tell you anything. I'm really comfortable with you. You have no idea how good you are to me. I'm thankful for every moment I have with you. Even if some day we go out, and I wont last forever with you, every single moment with you will last forever. And that's all I need. You always have been an important person in my life. You always will be. I love you. I won't say with all my life, because people die. So I'll say spirit. I love you with all my spirit Carter. - Jasmine

i sense a story in the progress right thur.

:/
I told him how I felt about him yesterday.
He acted like he was rejecting me -.-
It was embarassing x_x
thanks
but were still friends.
He told me he had a date for valentines day
and i was like
huh?
and i broke down crying and bleh.
but im just enjoying our friendship now

she wants to take chab in a seasme street outfit

i have a bf XD

well then take him in a big bird costume

i dumped him this morning cos i still love carter XD

Yeah. I'll bet this guy's feeling pretty good right now. D=

awww ):
well
he has a gf in rl anyway..

this was the conversation
"sooooo , are you doing anything for valentines day?"
"i have a date"
"eh?"
"i know unbelievable isnt it?"
"yeah"
"you should get one"
"um im um dateophobic"
"oh whys that?"
"no reason"
iiiiii
am the most embarassed girl in the world...
i cant get over carter grrr
6 months
;____;
6 months..
-sigh-
i feel so hurt
:/

ehh i tried tbh
and stuff
i dated this guy named chris TO get over him
and flirted with different dudes,
but he would keep coming in my head,
and when that happened,
i would automatically lose interest :/
yeah
hes the 2nd person ive ever really loved. :l
he really meant everything to me.
i cant believe this ish a ppening
i made myself believe it was a dream,
but i couldnt wake up :'/